Reflections on Reflections

February 21st, 2017, I wrote an article reflecting on how so many white people tormented us, and this torment still exists.  Through these civil rights photos, you can see them threatening us. Beating us. Humiliating us.  Lynching us. Burning us. Doing their barbaric, violent most just because they fear how we tell the truth about this society we share, this society they govern.  Just because we announce our humanity in the face of persistent demonization dealt by whites.  Many people commented disappointment that my column didn’t serve to oust those yelling, angry racist whites suppressing black thought.  Being that I concluded that these people still exist in spirit today, perhaps there would be satisfaction found in this column.

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These angry, yelling bigots still exist in the spirit of regular, common white people who think “they are not racist”.

Needless to say, this article sparked a lot of discussion and debate.  Many people — of all colors — have joined discussion on the matter.  While most were reflective on the issue of racism and oppression (which is my ultimate intent), there was a few who sought to silence me on the matter.

The commenting section of these articles exist not for me, but for everyone else who reads and observes the site.  Generally speaking, I don’t normally comment in my own comment sections.  I think it’s fair to allow the public to discuss the column with minimal supervision or interaction.  For the record I do read every single comment written.  People are totally allowed to support or oppose my stance.

Things get a bit different when someone attempts to attack me in through Facebook messaging.  You see, I find a serious problem with how people try to abuse and suppress people of color through private messaging services.  There’s a difference between talking to a writer through an open commenting section of the column versus abusing that said writer in private.  In the commenting section a person can be held accountable by others; there’s an audience with varying degrees of intelligence and rational thought.  In a private message, it’s just a yelling contest.  There’s no accountability unless the public can observe.

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The irony is not lost on the fact that this all stemmed from me commenting on a Civil Rights photo with a white woman yelling at a black person.  Here we have again, like clockwork, a white woman yelling at a black person.  The irony becomes even more bitter to the bite when you realize that Courtney Sparks Massery is the granddaughter (married into the family) of Hazel Bryan Massery — the white bigot in the photo yelling at a black teenager.  So it seems that the white supremacist apple doesn’t fall too far from the white supremacist tree.

As I said before, nothing has changed.

Being that white supremacists always preferred hoods and masks, nothing really has changed.  Instead of preferring white hoods, they now prefer white lies.  The white, Ku Klux Klan hood, while still existing in reality, has long been abandoned for a metaphorical one: double-speak, coded language, deflections and transference in discussion.  The empty claims of colorblindness while still acknowledging and observing color differences.  The tone policing.  The clinging relationship to ancient symbolic relics of a racist past, all while denying racism modern day.  This blatant dishonesty towards the state of nonwhites in America, serves as a new and improved white hood or mask to shield responsibility and accountability of the State of race relations.  ~ Johnny Silvercloud, 21 Feb 2017

While I could tear apart this deranged, white fragility drenched woman’s emotionally abusive comment piece by piece, I really want to bring attention to the intellectually dishonest “apology” she presented in the most passive-aggressive way.

Before we begin, I want to show this photo again:

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If conservative media existed back then, we would still live under Jim Crow law.

Notice anything different in the photo on the left?  Does this photo still makes sense?

Readers may recognize this bigoted yelling white woman as Tomi Lahren.  Yes, someone was courteous to place her face into this infamous scene, and it all still makes sense.

The reason why I bring this photograph to the table is to illustrate the reality we live in.  Tomi Lahren is a woman who is PAID (handsomely) to yell at black people.  My conclusion to what ever happened to these old bigots, is the fact that they live through these new and improved white supremacy agents.  Some get paid to yell at socio-politically aware black people.  Most yell at socio-politically aware black people for free, just like Courtney did.

In the original photograph, the white woman was Hazel Bryan Massery, and the word out on the internet is that she has long apologized for her white supremacist behavior towards Elizabeth Eckford, the black woman in the photo.  Courtney, her daughter, figures that this is very important and should move my overall critique.

Let’s engage in critical thinking here.

White people, please understand this fact — I don’t want an apology after 50-70 years of you tormenting us racially.  I want you to stop being racist right now.

Let’s look at Tomi Lahren again — a white woman who is paid handsomely as a white supremacy propagandist, who exists only to yell at numerous black people who are fighting for basic humanity and civil rights in America.  She exist only to normalize blatant racism in America.  I want people to think for a moment how immensely difficult such people make it for people of color and other minorities such as the LGBT community.  You might not know it, but many minorities hold back tears when they see her type, screaming at them.

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Should black abolitionists today accept an apology from Tomi Lahren in 2077, when she’s old and feeble?

With many bigoted whites of the yesteryear lying on their deathbeds, confessing, apologizing, do you think I would give a damn if Tomi Lahren, now 24 years old by the time of this publishing, apologizes in old age, on her deathbed, in the year 2077?  Tomi Lahren would be 85 years old on that year; I would be 96.  Even if I cared, I might not live long enough to see that mess.  I want her and her ilk to STOP BEING RACIST NOW, not later.

You have to be out of your mind if you think I give a damn about your apology.  The notion that a white person, in the name of white supremacy, can practically spend their better years terrorizing black people into post-traumatic stress disorder, silence us through law and violence, kill us, lynch us, anathematize us fighting for our rights can infinitely expect forgiveness with they are knocking on death’s door, is sickening.

It’s a despicable white privilege flex to think you can control a black person — black people in general — by gaslighting them, forcing a forgiveness bug on them.  White people, I’m letting you know that I don’t have this forgiveness bug that you think is genetic in all black people.

Let’s put this in a way you can understand: White people, would you accept an apology from a decrepit ISIS or Al Qaeda member 40-50 years from now?  After years spent dedicated to terrorism?

Why on earth would I give a damn about a weak ass apology, when you spent the majority of your life either ignorant and implicitly involved in subtracting from people of color, or explicitly engaged in the overt support of suppressing, oppressing and persecuting black people?  Apology?  Are you serious?

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This is Facebook message on the right belongs to Miranda Miller, another white woman who feels drunk on white supremacy.  A while back ago, this bigoted woman felt the urge to litter my inbox with a racist tirade.

I find it interesting that white women think they hold some power over a black man.  What makes these white women feel that they could berate a black person with impunity?  This is what white supremacy on a private level looks like.  I can only imagine how she speaks of black people in the company of white people she feels is on board with here degree of racism.

I never spoke on this one, but being that these comments are starting to accumulate, I just had to bring another one into public view.  Why don a KKK hood when you can emotionally torment Afro-Americans with the distance of the internet?  I’ve said it a while back, that black people are in an abusive relationship with white America.  Imagine dealing with this all your life.  Imagine the majority of an entire society raining down upon you for simply existing.  Imagine being the designated boogeyman of your nation, and white people like this think they are just in doing what they are doing.  Keep in mind that people like Courtney and Miranda, do these things for free.

This is why I speak.

Dear white people: I want you to let all of your racist, sociologically abusive friends know that if they ever get the notion to fuck with me. . . don’t.

Written by Johnny Silvercloud

The Soul Brother #1 of a Kind. Consequentialist street photographer abolitionist writer/speaker who stands for any oppressed peoples. I do it because every man and woman deserves freedom of thought -- especially black folks.

31 comments

  1. Again a Great article !! Why are those white people So angry ?? I think they are afraid ! Don’t know Why, But they are !

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    1. They’re not Oscar. Maybe their aggrivated. There are only so many excuses on why someone didn’t create themselves a good life, especially in the United States. If a boy can survive a literal Central American warzone, migrate to the United States and become a doctor, than there is zero excuses why that can’t be possible when you are born here.

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      1. To Derek and all the naysayers. The examples that you are bringing up that are successful black people? THEY WORKED HARDER THAN ALL OF US TO GET THERE. The point isn’t that it’s not now possible (thanks civil rights activists and civil rights lawyers!) for a minority to find success, the point is that fake apologies do not reconcile trauma.

        But speaking on those people, they are the roses that grew from the concrete. Some of them had good luck to some extent but all of them had to be much more careful than most white people. Being abused, discriminated against, and sometimes violently attacked can make you hard and course. This is where that “hood” mentality comes from. Just go to Africa and tell me that its natural for black people to be angry and violent and rough.This comes from extreme trauma and not being able to beat the odds.
        I know its not the full paper but here is a study on upwardly mobile african american families in multiple generations.

        http://www.jstor.org/stable/583922?seq=1#page_scan_tab_contents

        I think its important to note that people can have success AND life satisfaction while still speaking out in a means to hold society at a higher standard and call for a greater understanding of diverse perspective.

        THe assumption that this author is bitter and unsatisfied with life is completely unfounded. Here we have a well-read man with the confidence and ability to express such complex social injustices, who is being followed by a lot more than a handful of people. Hell, he gets hate mail! You know he’s a star, lol. Not to mention, if you do a little digging, he served in the military and is also a successful photographer. Not to mention that he’s not bad to look at it! ahaha.

        I really hope people reading this start to really open up and read because if you want anyone to “get over it” (wow, thats original) then you are going to have to first listen, and try to get over the fact that we as white people are born in to a white male supremacist system and particularly a Christian dominated government. This means that we have to carry the weight of our ancestors and even the ones who just look like us, because we are being given their legacy. We can make a change or we can keep pretending that everything is fine. Each person has a choice to be open to being educated or to stay closed and accept their privilege and assimilation to an oppressive culture.. Hazel chose to “ham it up” (which is what she called her yelling the n word at Elizabeth) and not only follow the crowd but be a posterchild for hate. Which side are YOU on?

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  2. It is a great article and it needed to be said. I may never know how it feels to be black, but I feel what that much be like and try to stop it every chance I get.

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    1. Being black is like being white.. Unless you make it different.. Crack, meth, trailer park, projects.. Choosing to take advantage of a free education, getting a job and working really hard.

      There’s no difference. Unless you make it different.

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      1. Or the rest of society makes it different. You should read the article above — it’s pretty good.

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  3. White ppl are always looking for forgiveness and a pat on the back for the most minimal of basic human decency. They want the kudos without putting in any of the work.
    Hall nah, they don’t get to have forgiveness just because they feel bad and begged for it.

    They have to atone, and none of them want to do that work. You see how the lady above wants forgiveness for something her momma did, not anything she herself did. She quick to take credit when OTHER white ppl do all the work, see.

    Quite possibly some of the most mentally and emotionally lazy ppl in the world. Will cause pain, not just to the handful of ppl in their orbit, but to thousands, millions of PoC, lgbtq, etc, and then want forgiveness right before they’re off to Hell (if one exists.)

    Once again, they put in no atonement, no undoing of the damage, or pain, they caused, but want applause for suddenly realizing how shitty they were, though.

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    1. Perfect. I’ve always said, “I’m sorry” is an action, not a phrase. It can’t just be said with words – to your point, atonement must be made. I’m a straight, white, Christian male. The definition of privilege. And I’ll be damned if I don’t spend every waking moment using every ounce of privilege to point out the evils that we still see every day.

      And I’m sick of the “I’m not racist” crap. It’s only in admitting our own racism that we can move beyond it. Am I perfect? Nope. Might not ever be. But I’ll die trying. And with my kids, I hope to break the chains even further.

      Keep doing your thing, sir. And know that for every stupid angry white woman, there’s quite a few people in your corner shouting “YES!”

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    2. “Quite possibly some of the most mentally and emotionally lazy ppl in the world. Will cause pain, not just to the handful of ppl in their orbit, but to thousands, millions of PoC, lgbtq, etc, and then want forgiveness right before they’re off to Hell (if one exists.)”

      This sounds eerily similar to accusations against things trump has said;

      “I think that the guy is lazy. And it’s probably not his fault, because laziness is a trait in blacks. It really is, I believe that. It’s not anything they can control.”

      http://www.vox.com/2016/7/25/12270880/donald-trump-racism-history

      Do you really think that skin colour defines how lazy and hurtful people are?

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      1. Skin color doesn’t, but generations of social programming do, and that was the point.

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    3. “You see how the lady above wants forgiveness for something her momma did, not anything she herself did. She quick to take credit when OTHER white ppl do all the work, see.”

      Aren’t you being quick to blame OTHER white people for the things that some white people have done as well?

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  4. Excellent! I’m listening to “Democracy in Black” on audiobook right now and this is so in line with it. Even as a member of a tiny vilified minority myself (a gay Jew), it is impossible for me to know what black people go through every single day and in an accumulation over years and generations. It’s incredibly important to learn as much as I can so I can be better than what society expects of me as a white person. Thank you!

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    1. Yes… But that version of society just excepts you on your knees though and slitting your wrist.. It’s easy, give it a try… Less weak in the world.

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  5. You are speaking as though all white people are one. I would never speak about all people of any race or religion or ethnicity as though they are one, as though they all think the same or feel the same. Black lives do matter, so do Methodist lives, so do German lives, so do female lives and old peoples’ lives, gay lives and straight lives, Jewish lives and Catholic lives. ALL life matters. History is history and is important for many reasons, mainly to avoid repeating it. We can learn from it. But I am not today’s history, I am tomorrow’s history. Just as I would not jump on the White Lives Matter band wagon, I will not jump on the Black Lives Matter band wagon. I live on the ALL lives matter band wagon. Your color, gender, religion etc does not matter more than any one else’s .

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  6. It’s a good thing you weren’t expecting an apology from shit that outdates your stupid ass by 50 years, because someone like me would laugh in your face. Racism exist now because you decide to hold on to it. A black President, black senators, black congressmen, black governors, black mayors, black judges and black CEO’s exist. The truth is they exist because they WORKED HARD to achieve those goals. They put in the work and the education to pursue these goals.

    Racism also exist so people like you can write articles and make money off the blood of those who actually did suffer. It exist so Don Lemon can get on TV with a black panel and make excuses while blacks can’t succeed.. All the while CNN cheerleading riots, applauding black communities as they burn down their OWN businesses and neighborhoods from an epidemic of “police brutality they helped invent. But that black president and those black millionaire CEO’s must be imaginary, right?.. They don’t exist. And if they did, they were just chosen, right?

    I know you hate shit like this, because your rebuttal would be bitter.. It wouldn’t make you think, it’d somehow be more ammo for your “cause”.. But what you really could do is sit on the street, take more pictures and get over it. But acting like you don’t hate white people. That’s sad. Remember, the first step in mending the problem is admitting it. That’s what the black panels say to whites on CNN. I don’t apologize to racist bro. Especially bitter ass, whiny racists.

    😉

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    1. I may have read the article incorrectly, but I believe those Facebook messages are more recent than the 1960’s, and unless my eyes deceive me Tomi Lahren is under 50 as well.

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      1. Oh know.. Three people out of hundreds of millions? I can triple that number of black racist posts from facebook in 35 seconds. This article doesn’t prove anything except those who are getting on their knees and apologizing for something they had nothing to do with are cowards.

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  7. I, too, do not know why people are angry, violent, or want to harm others.

    As Booker T. Washington so eloquently said, “I will permit no man to narrow and degrade my soul by making me hate him,” and, “You can’t hold a man down without staying down with him,” and, “If you want to lift yourself up, lift up someone else.”

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  8. I met a Mexican guy who grew up in a largely black neighbourhood in America in the 90’s and early 2000’s.

    He told me he had trouble sympathizing with the BLM movement because, even though he supports equality for everyone, he was tormented, beaten up, and bullied so furiously by the black students largely in relation to him being latino, an immigrant and his sexuality. Both him and his brother were the only 2 latinos in the school.

    He said white students were actually very nice to him.

    He said he didn’t want to feel anger towards the entire community, of course, but he was very scarred by the treatment of the black students towards him. He said he has gotten over it, mostly, but not completely.

    I will see him again tomorrow.

    Johnny, what would you tell him if he told his story about the abuse he felt from the black community at his school?

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    1. He’s not going to reply so I would try to find another black friend to answer your question (although its probably rhetorical).

      My opinion is totally just mine and may or may not be worth anyones time BUT As a white anti-racist i would tell him that his trauma is real but his fear is not and he knows it, otherwise he wouldn’t be trying to get over it.

      That said, what white people, as a category of people holding power in institutions, have done to his people and the black people who abused him is vastly more violent, traumatic, and long-lasting. Slavery and then years of abusive and degrading segregation are also passed down and mixed with all the bs of modern day. We can work and work and work and create a lot of beautiful healing in our own communities and familys to the point where progressive white people have MANY black allies. I’d be willing to bet that most black people would rather forgive than fight. Fighting requires vulnerability to more pain. Forgiveness allows you to move on and work on a base level in the hopes that the other person will fix their shit on their own.

      But the sad thing is that the media and the governemt and most institutions still think im innocent and naturally intelligent and my black and brown sisters and borthers are not. They are held back and asked to do more while I’m applauded for being relatively antiracist.

      I would tell this to your friend, and say,” your trauma is real and I’m here for you to talk about that and or try to heal yourself because you didn’t deserve to be bullied AND there are a lot more layers to this and you and all of those people to say that this story, your story— defines black people and/or even remotely matches the oppression of people of african descent for multiple generations— Hundreds of years, maybe more. *and* having white friends and knowing nice white people doesn’t mean that systematic racism is a hoax. I hope you continue to be blessed in that way because SO many others like you have actually not. If you came to where I grew up for instance, it would be a totally different story and you would have been traumatized by white people, gaurunteed.”

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      1. Well lisa, you go ahead and apologize. You be the one on your knees begging forgiveness over you being born white. Go apologize for all the things that happen to people in society, than blame it on society itself, not a person’s integrity. Go apologize for your parents and how it would have been better if they just never existed because their whiteness is a problem to the culture of others. Go apologize… Apologize, beg, cry, take yourself out, take out other whites who refuse to apologize. Remember, you are the problem. You are the reason blacks suffer. You are the reason. You.

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  9. I can’t be shocked by the comments of these women, but somehow my own level of ingrained racism allows me to be. I always think, “damn that could be my cousin. that could be my nieghbor. they seem so wholesome and loving and then out of nowhere comes this disgusting display of ignorance and hate.

    I don’t know if you are interested but I just read an article by a journalist in the UK that had met them multiple times

    http://www.telegraph.co.uk/news/worldnews/northamerica/8813134/Elizabeth-Eckford-and-Hazel-Bryan-the-story-behind-the-photograph-that-shamed-America.html

    If you read it, its starts out honest, then opens up into something that seems like a special moment. This moment was capture in a photo for an artist working on some kinda reconcilation project http://i.telegraph.co.uk/multimedia/archive/02020/PD47638514_elizand_2020807b.jpg

    Elizabeth was hip but wary. Things began to unfold over time. Apparently, COurtney’s “MAWMAW” had spent the later part of her years “helping out black folk” by taking them to the forest or something. So, of course, this created a scenario of redemption for her in which it seems she felt was worthy of her crime. Maybe even Elizabeth agreed, she went along trying to work things out with Hazel for a while. It wasn’t until finally that Hazel admitted that she didn’re *really* think anything was wrong with what she did. That no one in her community talked about it later and the redemption she sought was guilt from public shaming. She was more upset about the shaming than how it actually effected Elizabeth. And furthermore, her attempts at redemption and reconcilation were fell short when she lacked the ability to admit wrongdoing and/or severity.

    This is something that white people really need to pay attention to and work on. Thanks for sharing your perspective and alerting me to this reality. Its giving me a deeper understanding of my own actions and word choices. I aim to do better.

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  10. This is everything. This is giving me life and giving a cohesive set of words to my thoughts and feelings, which are, at times, too strong, too much, too painful to verbalize as I am subjected to this almost every single day:
    “Instead of preferring white hoods, they now prefer white lies. The white, Ku Klux Klan hood, while still existing in reality, has long been abandoned for a metaphorical one: double-speak, coded language, deflections and transference in discussion. The empty claims of colorblindness while still acknowledging and observing color differences.”

    THANK YOU ❤

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  11. I see the fact that the reconciliation between Elizabeth Eckford and Hazel Bryan Massery was short-lived, because of reasons not far from what is addressed in the post, was already addressed.

    I think that the media (both news and fiction) is largely to blame for the expectations imposed on African Americans relative to the expectation of them having the forgiveness bug and all that. It’s white savior meets redemption arc basically.
    It’s effective and popular narrative but doesn’t work in the real world.
    What’s even more problematic is that it implies there is exactly 1 acceptable way for a black person to position themselves in response to the “apology” and that is subordination. The apology overweighting in importance the damage done to the person who is supposed to accept it with open arms isn’t equality by any stretch of the imagination. In general i think it’s a waste of energy having people trying to clear their conscience on your expense.

    I find it interesting how both Moonlight and Fences deal with the apology/redemption theme, though in different contexts, that never result in full forgiveness because they focus on the people who’s lives were affected by what other people asked forgiveness for instead for going to the redemptive happy ending. I noticed how rare of an approach that is in fiction. What’s interesting is how Viola Davis as a 50s housewife gets to stand up to her husband and never fully forgive him, while on How To Get Away With Murder she as a high profile lawyer and professor is constantly denigrated by her students (usually white), characters (usually white) are redeemed at her expense, she’s often reminded (by white characters) how her traumas don’t matter compared to theirs and similar stuff.
    What’s also interesting related to asking for forgiveness is the white showrunner’s tweet about how valuable the black character he just killed off for no good reason (very graphically, often showing his burned body in numerous episodes) and talented the actor portraying him is was met with a substantial number of “than why did you kill him off” like responses. It ironically makes it even more obvious that, despite the progressive/inclusive label they claim, the writing and inherent seeking for forgiveness for killing off a prominent black character showcases the implicit racism of the writers. When people respond by asking why they killed him off, they’re practically telling the show runner to stop being racist rather than apologizing for – even if not ever stated explicitly.

    For us foreigners fiction and the on-line discussions about it is probably how we end up being subjected to racial dynamics both through fictional depiction and how it’s perceived by the public. It’s what happened to me with the show I mentioned above. I realized I was involved in ration discussions without realizing at first. Even when it comes to fiction, many only find acceptable characters of color, especially Black, when they fit certain criteria, specifically they have to be subordinated. If they’re not they will be despised. Certain opinions many had about specific characters made no sense to me until I realized many simply decode characters based on stereotypes relative to the color of their skin.
    I really thing something similar is behind the expectation of there being a forgiveness bug in every black person. People just buy into every “important” white savior storyline and movie out there. This stories are written to be very comfortable to the white audience while being over hyped for the issues they address.

    How certain people react to the honest uncomfortable for them to hear POV of a Black man is self explanatory and abhorrent. I don’t care how they’re articulated or if they feature racial slurs or not, they all say the exact same thing. They’re telling you where your place is and how it’s wrong for you to not stay in the place they defined as appropriate for you. I realized it’s a compete waste of time to engage in discussions with these people since it’s all a succession of talking points that have no merit. I think it’s merely a diversion tactic that only serves to take the focus away from the original arguments, in this case the content of the 2 articles.

    The all lives matter thing is the most obvious one of all. I’m European and white and the Black Lives Matter movement was something I always perceived as self explanatory and I don’t see why anyone would have an issue with it. When they start with the all lives matter thing it’s where it gets ridiculous. As if the 2 were mutually exclusive when they’re practically synonymous. It’s as if fighting for the right for gay couples to marry meant only gay people could get married or women fighting for the right to vote meant suddenly men wouldn’t be allowed to vote.
    The problem with it is that the idiotic all lives matter talking point and debates over it practically overshadowed what Black Lives Matter is all about.

    I think the key here is realizing that in all honesty with these articles Johnny is simply stating the obvious. The fact that it gets the reactions it gets only shows how little willingness or being used to there is for voices like his to be heard because the people who are made uncomfortable by them lived their lives with the luxury of dismissing those voices while throwing the N word at them.

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